Saturday, June 28, 2008

tensions

I am tense, wound up, high strung these days - I shouldn't really be stressed, there is really nothing much to be stressed about, but somehow I can't seem to relax properly. I dont feel depressed or unhappy Its only the tiny muscles inside my ribcage are just never able to relax. I have just been running round the lake but it didn't help me relax properly. I have tried a bunch of stuff. If anyone has had similar experiences then good advise is welcome :-/

7 comments:

Jennifer said...

Drats! The link won't work on my machine!

Usually, if I am tense in the manner which you describe, immediate relief can be found simply by commencing menstruation.

Somehow, I doubt this is an option for you.

That this is not an option for you makes me all the more tense during a very tense week. It's not that I don't like you for not having the ability to menstruate, it's that LIFE JUST IS NOT FAIR!!!

Angeline Rose Larimer said...

I think you're about to menstruate, as well.

I get more stressed after a few solid days of running, then wake up to euphoria just about when I thought I couldn't stand it any more.
Give it another jog or two?

Or chocolate.

Torben BoP said...

Well if nothing else I get new insights into womanhood.

And chocolate is always an option to explore if something needs taking care of.

Angeline Rose Larimer said...

Feeling better yet?

I'm not. I'm feeling most anxious in the evenings. Something's going on in the cosmos, most likely.

Torben BoP said...

Well Ange thanks for asking, I’m gonna lay it on you then :-)

To quote John Mayer "I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there".

I don't know anything for absolutely sure anymore, it has been a tough year on and off, with a sad-feeling winter like the last few winters, being able to get by ok by using light therapy. I’m ok with that, Its a chemical thing, my body is a machine, something is not running as it should so I use light-therapy.
But this year it just kept on grinding somewhere in those old wheels, it got so bad my doctor prescribed some pills, which worked fine, for the 6 months I took them everything worked normally, there were ups and downs just like everyone else has them. But now that I'm off the pills again, it seems that what they did was to postpone things, so that the issues are back again.
I think it must be stress related, a steady build up (or rather tear down) over the last years, feeling frustrated by the lack of leadership, the added responsibilities I did not ask for but felt I had to take, stuff like that - and lots of it. All resulting in stress, anxiety and things..
While using the medicine I were taking classes in stress management, motivation (self and others) and by god conflict handling, learned some tools that help, at least minimise further escalation of stress.
I'm reading books related to the subject, take extra vitamins, exercise much, do what I can to be happy (WOOHOO!!) And I try to do what I can to listen to what my body tells me, to think about why I react the way I do when the users are stupid and yell at me because their PC locks up. And I try to correct my behaviour accordingly and and as I said I'm not quite there yet - and sometimes its just exhausting.

Angeline Rose Larimer said...

Since you used the word 'lay' first, I'll toss one back at you...

Read all of the above and nodded my head.
Couldn't help wondering, however, 'Is Torben getting laid enough?'

Feel free to delete this if the answer makes you sob.

I'm no PhD in male psychosis, but money and sex (lack of) are the two biggest reasons Tom gets into a long term funk.

You may get off the couch now. See my secretary about billing.

Torben BoP said...

LOL

Oh my - you are baad. And probably have a point too.

As a matter of fact, Im just watching "40 year old virgin" and can relate somewhat.
:-)